Bardings

Written by Jerry Isdale
Written sometime between 1979-1981
Taken from scrolls printed at INTERactive Systems

Contents:
Future Shock and Cure
The All
To the life I am leaving
Voyage
Mundane
Change
Sigh
Answer
Facist

Future Shock and Cure

put on some quiet music
sink into the endless see
try to find a peaceful place
away from this swirling storm
the future rushes in
the past fades away
too soon

The paths spread before me
choices to be made
such a wealth
opportunity abounds
failure lurks

Changing pressures mount
fault lines appear
my mid begins to shake
FLEE!!
Safety waits
around the corner,
somewhere else
or
within me all the time

Peace decends
troubles wane
anyplace is center
anytime is now
infinity lies beneath my chest
expanding everywhere

Love reaches out
touches my life
across the barriers
of time and space
All the family gather round
we stand to face the dawn

togather

The All

In the beginning
there was tao
void and full
constant and one
encompassing all and no thing

Together appeared change and separation
for without a before and a now
there is now change
and without change
there is no appearance

Yet both change and separation
are within tao
for not a thing is without
and not a thing is within

Thus were born relativity and time
and with them came three
energy, movement and matter

From all these came the infinite
and the infinitesimal

In this infinity of mind
there was great commotion and action
All was brought to be

The descendants of mind were numberous
They shouted to each other

"here, come and see.
Leave what is there,
come be here."

Thus they raced,
ever moving, ever spinning
karma went round and round

Then there appeared the ones
(or were they always there)

They said "Where do you race,
where ever you are going,
you are already there."

The others stopped
turned and stared.

Fell on them and

Looked away.

But the Ones remained
they did not go
I've followed their paths
Their ways i wished to know
i stepped through death
and saw the whole show.

Now i'm back,
i know the score
I grasp at knowing no more
Go as you will
there is no blame
without any difference,
there is no shame.

To the life I am leaving

(From the Caribbean before I interviewed and moved to LA)

To the life I am leaving
To the life that I have lived:

The world thru you was but a dream,
A quiet meditation, a vacation from strife,

Having lived fevore in times of stress,
I used your time to heal my soul.
Now I am finished, now I awake.
For twenty and two I worried in sleep.
The limits I beheld, the bondage that I felt
Have faded now like visions,
The misty walks we live a night.

I thank you for your healing peace
I thank you for your teaching pain.
Release me now to live my way.
Let me go, we've had our time.
I shall remember the lessons you gave.
I know where I came from,
I know where I've been.
Know the also, you were not the first,
And most likely far from the last.

I travel now to troubled space,
Where men and gods, daemons and droids
Confront one another in time without frame.
Beyond lies the eternal love,
A society built on the principles you taught.
Through Magic and Mystery
Through Science and Thought
Through times of peace and nuclear threats,
Thanks to you I will come to the Rest.

Voyage

(named in 2001)

I am on a voyage through time.
I am on a voyage through space.
I travel thru the heads of friends,
I empathize with them all.
No matter how diverse they be,
All are intricately connected to me

Mundane

(named in 2001)
All these people, including myself
are running from something
i think its our Selfs
We've created a world, we built up our god.
No Money reigns, it demands that we pay
We made up the rules, we play our own game
But how many of me are happy with life?
I see in the faces, I see in the souls
The horrors, the tortures, the twisted liveds
Are there to behold.
Yet maybe they made it the way they want.
If they really didn't like it and wish it that way,
Wouldn't the change it and enjoy it again?

Do people really want what enlightenment has,
Or have they already been there and returned once again?
If they have, they forgot they hold the key
To the way into life out of their misery.
I guess that my function, however, benign,
Is merely to remind them, a secret passage exists,
To a world without anger, a world without hate.
No need to be jealous, no need to distain.
We're all truly equal, we share the same plane.

Am i something special, or merely mundane?

Change

(named 2001)

Change accelerates around me.
This once solid corner of all
Has suddenly gotten free
The bondage to form, the chains that we forged
Are disolving around us,
The workd bcomes unhinged
The theory of universal existance
The improbability of all
Has wiped out all structureds, All connection s exist.
How can I tell which lines I should follow?
Which lead to life and which unto hell?
Now that I know, what if I forget?
If everyone lives within walls,
Where are the windows?
How to find the doors.

Sigh

(named 2001)

The world around me crumbles in glee
Distruction and chaos sing in sweet harmony
Where is the structure, Where is my guide?
Sometime in these past short months
My body went left, my soul went on.
The path grows foggy, vectors collied
I'm lost without purpose,
Alone in the Void.

I desperately need guidance
I desire some help
Most what I need is a lover and friend
Someone to make a home with
Someone to build our Self.
How can i find her?
I know not a way.
The Glory of All, the ends of the world
Are mine to behold
Yet they give me no happiness
My heart is a hole
I've even lost God
I've lost all control

How strange to sit here grieving
The sand and the sun are warm this day
The sea beats gently on the shore of my mind
A breeze blows quietly
And scatters my sigh

Answer


who am i to say
what is and is to be
i am but a traveler
through the worlds of mystery.
that which you seek to learn from me
is hidden in your own reality.
i could show you signposts
through out infinity
but you, yourself decide
those which you will see.

Facist


Though you actions may repress,
Thy humanity be hid,
Thou art a part of All,
No less of God than i.